the first post

I have a secret.  It's a secret that both family and friends would be thrilled to know.  Except we've decided not to tell them.  At least not yet. 

The secret?  This past winter hubby and I decided that we'd try for baby number two this spring.  Our first born, who will be referred to here as "little guy", is approaching his fifth birthday this summer.  And it is definitely time for him to have a sibling.

Our families and friends have been asking us for several years when we plan to have another baby.  The truth of the matter is that having a baby is something both hubby and I take very seriously.  We want to be responsible parents.  Also, we experienced some complications with my first pregnancy that influenced us to take our time.

  



We have decided to keep this a private matter for many reasons.  First and foremost we just want privacy to go about this on our own.  We don't want pressure from outsiders, no matter how well their intentions are.  I don't want people constantly analyzing me as to whether or not I look or act pregnant.  We want to go with the flow.  But I'll be honest, it's killing me not to share this with my family.  :)

Our decision came with some loving thoughts and respect for a couple of our loved ones.  My cousin, who is more like a sister to me, has gone through two miscarriages over the past two years.  I've been praying for her nonstop and yesterday my prayers were answered.  I got the best email that I've recieved in such a long time.  She's over 12 weeks pregnant.  Yay!

My brother and his wife announced late last year that they'd be trying for a baby.  And in the early months of this year, I got an awesome text message showing their positive pregnany test.  Joy was soon overtaken by sadness when some complications occurred and miscarriage soon followed.  The good news is that they believe this to be a normal miscarriage and have been given the green light to start trying after three months.  I'm praying for them constantly.

These stories, along with many more from family and friends, remind us that planning for baby is not so easy.  Sometimes we're given rivers to cross and mountains to climb.  But the joy that comes from being a parent is like no other.  I have a love for my son that I never knew possible, and that comes from a very loving person.  :)

So as we begin this journey, I decided to create this blog.  It'll be my special place to go when I need to talk.  Eventually I will probably share this blog with family and friends.  But until we reach that special time, it'll be my secrect, and yours (if you happen to find me).  ;)